It’s so funny how I had a mini heart attack when I saw him after school, I haven’t talked to him since Friday :c
I swear I’m near a mental breakdown, I am in the shittiest mood ever and I feel like punching everyone who wants to talk to me in this goddamn house
Today pretty much sucked up until fourth period. I’m really starting to be annoyed by the two best friends I sit next to in first period and I hate everyone in second period. Third period is just an awkward period now.
It’s like all of a sudden everything turned around. The rest of the day was great, and it would’ve been perfect if it weren’t were for some personal issues.
I’m such a bitch.
It’s been two weeks since we’ve talked. He doesn’t walk past my desk anymore, he purposely avoids it.
He gave me a half - smile and a half wave last thursday, but only because he accidentally made eye contact with me.
I shouldn’t even be complaining, I’m the one who wanted it to stop. I only did it because two weeks ago I was in such a shitty mood and didn’t feel like talking to anyone.
So I left class early, I didn’t wait for him. The next day, I did the same, and so on.
I feel like the rest of the year is going to be awkward, I wonder who’ll “break the ice” first.
It’s not like I can avoid him forever, there’s only 18 kids in my AP Bio class and soon we’ll be meeting up on Saturdays.
As hard as I tried not to like him, I can’t help it. I have a crush :3 lol and it’s been awhile since I last had one. He’s a senior and I met him like a month ago. That being said I already know I have no chance with him, ha. Lately, all I really look forward to is lunch because that’s when we hang out. He’s always trying to make me say that he looks cute lol and he says that I’m part of his “posse”. His friends call me “Michael’s friend” or “Jedi” trololol. Today he wore my backpack and walked around with it x) He’s a funny kid :) why do I always end up liking dark, funny guys haha
Freeeeedom :)
I don’t know how long I’ve been holding back, but it doesn’t matter because now I can get back to blogging.
I just couldn’t write about what’s going on and with who in my old blog anymore, I felt too exposed with so many people I know following me.
I’ll probably use this as my main tumblr now, it’ll be weird but whatever ~
This was my resolution and I can’t wait to write about what’s been going on :)
